Friday, December 24, 2010

This morning...

My sweet and gentle roo, Jericho, viciously attacked me completely unprovoked. Flogged me, spurs flying, trying to rip my hand off through my glove (I have the bruise to prove it).

I pushed him back three times before I completely lost my temper and beat him unconscious with a big plastic spoon (which broke in half).

I wanted to kill him.

Only when I saw him laying there, eyes swollen shut, bleeding, trying to breath with bubbles gurgling out of his beak did I come to my senses - oh my god what had I done.

I panicked, picked him up, couldn't stop wailing, ran outside with him in my arms to get my husband, my poor roo was dying and we had to put him out of his misery, I failed him, what the hell just happened there...

However the cold air must have revived Jericho as he started to open his eyes a bit, looking around, dazed and confused, his poor crest smashed and swollen...

After a few minutes he seemed to be OK so we put him back in the pen with his girls, he's walking around fine - tail up - but he's not touching food nor water and will not roost up on the pallet with his girls, which worries me.

He either has blurred vision or brain damage, for sure I gave him a mighty good concussion...

I feel utterly horrible, sad, guilty, remorseful - how can I do this to one of my pets, let alone one of my best ones? What the hell happened? I've had this boy since he was a day old last February 16th, he's never been anything but sweet and submissive and kind - and now today, out of nowhere, I was the enemy that had to be destoyed? WTF?

I over-reacted and he almost paid with his life.

I still don't know if he'll be OK or not.

Maybe I'm not cut out to be a mom. :-(

5 comments:

Busy Bee Suz said...

Oh TD, there is no way you could have prevented this. It was your gut reaction to protect yourself.
I do hope he will be ok....I am sure he as already forgot the incident.

I had one of my kids bite me hard on my shoulder as a toddler....she was lucky I did not have a spoon in my hand.
Let us know how he is.

xoxo

Debby@Just Breathe said...

I am so sorry that happened to you. You had to protect yourself.
((HUGS)) I am praying that he will be fine and that you can forgive yourself.

Rebecca Nickols said...

I don't have a rooster, but I've heard they can become very aggressive/dangerous for no reason..

On a lighter note, I love your site, photography and humor. I look forward to reading more!

prin said...

*hugs*

~ deb ~ said...

We'll see if he has the guts to do that again! I can't tolerate a mean rooster .. I'm feelin' ya girl!