I can't believe she's gone...
My sweet Angel, one of the first silkies
to grace our mismatched flocks...
She wore her name well...
Never sick a day in her life,
she survived a crop surgery on our kitchen table last summer -
and now she's gone because of a stupid eye injury.
One day she was fine,
the next day her right eye was closed
and it was obvious she was in a lot of pain.
I assumed someone had pecked her in the eye,
gave her antibiotics to ward off infection
even if there was no sign of anything awry
except her tightly-closed eye -
She went blind on one side.
In she space of a couple of weeks
she lost half her weight.
She lost her balance
and her status in the pack.
She kept swinging her head from side to side,
trying to see
or trying to alleviate the pain.
Everyone started pecking on her.
I found her on her back earlier today,
head twisted to the side -
when I lifted her up I noticed blood on her neck feathers
then her eye, or whatever was left of it.
She was half passed out from pain and shock.
There was only one thing to do,
the kind thing, the humane one.
The final act of mercy.
Thank you to my dear husband
for ending her suffering,
I just cannot do it.
I feel hollow inside.